Most of us are trying to dissolve our Ego.
But the Ego cannot be dissolved using will-power.
Using will-power to dissolve the Ego creates
spiritual Ego.

Spiritual Ego is an image of oneself as the
egoless person. So one is chasing a projection,
an image instead of change of behavior.
Therefore, the old egoic behavior simply
continues, with an image of egolessness on top.

This is how you get clever spiritual teachers
who convince themselves of being enlightened,
and lure others into their trap. Most of them
are full of shit.
Especially those who have a lot of wealth and
political power.

The Ego can't be dissolved. It can only be
observed and integrated. To integrate your
Ego is to bring together conflicting parts
of your identity together. It is to know
why you fear the person you love, and why
you chase pleasures, while also chasing enlightment.

Without doing this, the Ego remains conflicted
and confused. You say one thing, and do another.
This conflict resolves with integration between
the three parts of the Ego.

The Ego is divided into three parts.
The Self-protection, the Self-image and the
True-self.

Self-projection is who I show the world,
Self-image is who I think I am, and the true-
self who I actually am.

The greater the self-awareness, the greater
the overlap in the three selves.

The lesser the self-awareness, the less is
the overlap.

The path to integration begins with intense
self-observations from moment to moment.
And in such observation having an insight.

The Insight into why you have conflicting
thoughts, creates clarity. That clarity creates
Integration.

For example, when I am angry, and observe that
anger. I sometimes notice I am not angry at another,
I am only afraid of an unkown future. So I try
to control that fear, and that control manifests
as anger towards them.

This insight dissolves anger and creates integration.

You observe and understand a lot. Some you can't.
And to that, you Surrender. In Surrender, the battle
of opposites comes to an end.

That which refused to change begins to undergo a
spontaneous transformation. Where there was once
pain, there is now passion. Where there was fear,
there is now flow, where there was darkness, there
is light.

When there are no pretenses, no judgements, no labels
inwardly, when all of you becomes one unified whole,
without any divisions or conflict, the Ego has found
integration. Thought becomes cleard, definite and precise.

An Integrated Ego takes action without the influence of
fear or desire. Which is why it takes right action that
is suited to the moment and intuition, it acts from
uncompromising morality and compassion.

This is why whatever it chooses to do, spread joy,
love and healing in the world.

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